Just an Update

So my little baby boy turned 1 first week of October, and he has changed much and fast. And I couldn't be a prouder mother.
He has learned a lot, and although he doesn't have the guts to walk without holding our hands yet, he's become such an intelligent little human being! It's amazing how he learns things by himself. The best part of my day is when I catch him doing something I didn't think he could.
I still miss the days when he was just a tiny little blog of fat and love (haha! he'll hate me once he's able to read this) but of course, I love the boy he's growing up to be. It's a fun journey being a parent.

As to my aspect of this metamorphosis, the changes that occurred in my life are amazing too. Getting up earlier in the day without feeling drowsy -- oh, could it be? i'm slowly becoming a morning person! haha! -- and trying new things, for example, are things that make me feel refreshed and as if I'm finally living my life. Why do I say it like that? Because honestly, when I started having a family I thought my capabilities would be sized down. Nadah!

I started doing driving lessons. Yeah it might sound a little late for some people, learning how to drive at the age of 21. But my parents didn't allow me to go to driving school when I was younger. So it's a big thing for me! It's good to learn something again after graduating college. So there are new additions, still, to my knowledge bracket and skills. Also, I was planning to finally apply for work since my kid turned one, and it seemed like he was fine without his mother being around all the time... but apparently that is false...

He's actually become more attached to me and has not stopped relying on breastmilk... so there you have it. No job for me. Haha! Although, I think postponing that plan isn't such a bad idea with Christmas coming along, so my work schedule doesn't take me away from my family. So i'll just use the time to work on my baby's independence.

I also gotta say that at this point in the little guy's life, we as parents can pretty much tell who are friends for keeps and are always gonna be there for him... Word of advice: Those who kept saying they'll visit you at the hospital when you were pregnant but never showed, are not people you should keep in your circle of friends. Or those who said that they wanna be your kid's godparents and love your kid like he's their own but never bother to visit him or ask you out so they can see him.. yeah, same story. You don't have to wait more than a couple'a months to figure out who's who.
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BTW, why don't we say a little prayer for the victims of calamity in the southern Philippines... 7.2 earthquake recently took a lot of lives. :(

We are Us

We had separate identities when we were younger and didn't know each other.
he was what i would call a free spirit, and i was ... a broken one.
the point is, we had individuality like most kids do. i guess you can refer to it as teenage angst.

and when we met each other, our personalities were different again, more mature, more grounded.
the identity crisis fully overcome.
and then we learned more & more about one another, from one another, and for one another.
we grew together, and now i can barely see who i used to be, or who i wished to be. there are remnants of what i grew up with, a fundament, the core of me. that's still there.
i guess that's what will always remain, no matter who you are to meet and be with because
people can only change you so much.
now there is more of his attributes in me. and more of me in who he has become.
we have become one, what we call 'us'.

Try to be Good

You can't show everyone who you really are.
I'd say I can't show everyone my kindness. Although, I'd like to... since most people know me as an ill-tempered one. And as many have told me, I give off the impression that I'm stingy.
I mean, seriously, one should be able to blame one's facial structure or feature for the way people judge you. But I'm not stingy, and I try not to be.
I'd love to be someone little children would initially deem a nice lady.

Truth is, I can be very patient, and be helpful to great extents. Sometimes I can even be generous. I'm not praising myself here. I just want to describe myself from the personal eye.
Anyway, but whose bubble doesn't burst when his humility is stepped on?
There are even times when I try to be kind even then. Because I am a woman of faith. And also, because I have come across the phrase, "Benefit of the doubt", and I have tried to apply it countless times.
But I guess I can also say that what made it even easier for me to give someone the benefit of the doubt is a little thought called "innate goodness". Don't you think people were all originally uncorrupted? We are not savage animals.

If someone pisses me off, I make up excuses for them. I have to note here, though, that it has not always been a good idea to do that for someone, especially if the person is (plainly stated): a real douchebag. But all the other times, it works.
I think if the situation was the other way around, I'd want someone to imagine being in my shoes too, that's IF I was pissed myself and couldn't help but take it out on the world, because I'm a total douche. Right?

I am simply saying that it is helping me be less grumpy or cranky. It's like follow-up rehab after going to Church (since that's where you learn all this stuff mostly if not through really good, really rare, and TONS of books). And I know I won't ever be able to conquer the world with my little acts of kindness, or show people that I'm not as bad as they think I am... but maybe by doing so, people will eventually remember me as a nice person.

You are your computer

Tough times these days. Can't get enough alone time (meaning blog time), and no stable internet connection.
Not really complaining, just saying.

I could start writing plain old school, on paper, whenever wherever and then just post it online some other time, but I don't much find the time to do that either. So I am seizing the opportunity.

Quoting my FB statuses earlier today (for future reference):

"Everything most people do today is quote others, or if not that, they listen in on conversations and approve or disapprove. Their minds barely get exercised anymore. Copying, liking and sharing, rephrasing, retweeting, repinning, reposting... The internet is making machines out of us.
Blogs used to be like journals and now they are full of other people's opinions resulting in less discourse in the world. Where is your own idea, your own say in the matter?"

It's essential to be alone sometimes. Where do you think Introverts get their ideas from? The term isn't an insult. I'd gladly be one if it meant I had always something smart to say. ;)
***notice that it's the 2nd time I mention introverts in my blog. I think I might be obsessed with 'em. LOL nahh.

"I think people should just stay home one random weekend or cancel all the useless tedious plans on a free weekday, you know, isolate themselves.
Instead of doing the usual partying, movie marathon, or sitting in front of the machine, get up early one Sunday, have a cup of coffee or tea, watch the sun come up and let your thoughts go from there. You might surprise yourself with ideas that might seem worthy to mention the next time you're out."

Like I said, alone time, man. I still have those moments from time to time but I never find myself with a means to put down my thoughts. You know, I read once that $3 million ideas usually come at 3 a.m. HAHA!
So you best keep a notepad and pen on your night stand. But that's just a gist. I need one at all times. They're so random, I think I'm losing $3 million dollars over three times a day. Just kidding!